Father

by Nicole Halpin

A slight wiggle of the curtains was the only sign of my presence that morning in the gym on the lowest floor of the Tower of the Suns. The only one I ever gave even though I had come to this very spot nearly every day for forty-four years. It would have been forty-five if not for the exile from my homeland to which I had just returned. I couldn't slip, if a dark elf like myself was discovered to have returned to the elven lands they would be executed.

Peeking around the corner I bit my lip against the sudden rise of sorrow in my throat. He and the troupe were there, just as they always had been. Vixos Oakleaf, the court jester from whom I learned all I knew of acrobats, had already began the troupe's warm-ups, watching them with his expert eye. I smiled to myself as he whapped Ben on the backside with the flute he was never without.

"Yes, the pikes are perfect, but your layouts would be better if you weren't staring at Alia's backside all the time, so get out of heat, Ben," He scolded. For a moment he glanced my way, an odd look crossing his eyes. The jester plopped down neatly on the mat, continuing to watch the others critically while bringing his flute to his lip and playing a melody I had heard many times before. A piece about seaweed and otters. His brow furrowed, and suddenly to my horror he started walking directly towards me lowering the flute again.

Falling back on my thief training I pulled back further behind the curtain, but his footfalls still came. Steeling myself I grabbed the jester as he turned the corner, clamping a gloved hand over his mouth. The poor man grabbed his chest, stifling a scream.

"Calm down Vix, it's just me. I won't hurt you, I promise." I kept my voice down out of necessity.

"Mir? E'li, what are you doing here? They'll kill you if they catch you..." Vixos automatically dropped his voice to a whisper.

"I know... But the Dark Queen has infiltrated the Tower... She has followers here and I have to find them. I had to come back..."

"What?! Here in the Tower?"

I bit my lip, taking a few steps back starting to tremble slightly. "I'm sorry Vix... I shouldn't have come down here. I missed the troupe is all."

Vixos nodded, "Listen, Mir... You know I'm all over this place right? If you need any help, just let me know. Not a fighter, but whatever help I can be..."

I nodded. "Aye, Sure... Thanks..." I swallowed hard and started to turn away. E'li there were so many things I wanted to ask him. Why Vix was the only one who was ever truly kind to me in this damned Tower, why I always felt I could trust him when he was under the employ of my cousin the Speaker.

"I missed you Mir."

"Don't see why... I'm just the neighborhood fish."

"Don't make me wash your mouth out, Mir. I happen to have loved my mistress your mother. Even if she did have a tendency to sneak up and splash me with her tail just to see me jump. She was kind, and beautiful, and wonderful. Is even, I am sure."

I paused, jerking my head back to look at Vix in surprise. "What? You knew my mother? But she never came to the Tower."

"Well, I wasn't always here, Mir... I've only been here for... a while."

I chewed my lip, the jester was transparent enough that the fact he was hiding something was obvious, especially to a trained thief like myself.

"Just trust me, I knew her. And you have her eyes."

"A bit... It's more of a mix between her and my... Father..." I could hardly make myself even mention the insane prince who killed his brother and attempted to wipe out the rest of his family as well in a bid for the throne.

"You know, you're still a prince to me. I know it's treason, but I can't think of you as dead."

"Don't worry about me Vix, I'm just a dark elf. I'm not worth worrying about, especially for a decent law abiding Qualinesti like you."

"You're not your father, Mookie.. I can tell you that much... you have fire, but you are not in the least bit insane. Although you have his aim." Vixos reached up and idly rubbed a permanent lump on his skull.

A dark chuckle born of 110 years of bitterness escaped me. "I might as well accept that I'm close enough to him... I was crazy enough to come back wasn't I? Even if it was to do E'li's work. And my nickname's Mir, not Mookie. Whoever that is."

"Aye... Of course, I'm sorry Mir. But trust me, unless you've taken up a habit of marching around your home in the nude and talking to spoons you are not your father." Vixos looked up at me with eyes that spoke of personal knowledge.

Even with there elven slants, my eyes became sea-green saucers. "No... You're just the jester, you couldn't have."

"Prince's have private fools too." A look of deeper pain then I thought the jester could ever hold crossed Vixos' face but he seemed to recover.

I simply stared at him blankly. Sinking down on the floor cross-legged, I closed my eyes fighting back the pain of the newly opened, but old wound.

"You knew my father..." I whispered.

"Somebody had to try to calm him when he was in his rages, Miralas. It was easier after you were born... he loved you so much. We all did. Whether you believe it or not, it doesn't change the fact that I am more loyal to you than to my liege even. Which is why you must take me with you. For the good of Qualinesti, that someone not divided in his loyalties would serve the Speaker."

"You were the only person I actually liked the first day I was here. I never forgave Porthios for taking you away." I swallowed, still managing the keep the pain off my face if not my eyes, cursing myself for leaving myself open. You'd think that I would have learned better in over a century.

"To me you were the son I never had." Vix flinched the moment he uttered those words, as if expecting me to strike him for daring to wish family ties to one of the royal family. "I know it's wrong of me. But... I wouldn't even hold your sister after you were stolen. "

I drew in my breath, tensing even more as I for all my practice I couldn't keep the tears back any longer. I managed to whisper, "Why would you ever want a dark elven fish for a son Vix? You don't deserve that... I'm hardly good enough for you."

"You should never have been made a dark elf for falling in love with a human. The father of our nation did the same. And you are not a fish, you are the son of a Dargonesti of more honor and beauty than any woman I have known excepting her daughter, who was only her equal."

Vixos sank down next to me, wrapping an arm around my shoulders as a father would a son. I whispered, "You were the closest thing I had to a father Vix. I never had a dad. I had to be one."

"To little Estrie and to yourself... Oh Mookie... The things you have suffered that you never should have..."

I shut my eyes again, letting my head fall against Vix's shoulder. A warm feeling starting to spread over the ache. "I would have never guessed it Vix, you don't seem all that older then me. You're what. Two hundred?"

Vix pointed upwards with his thumb to indicate more.

"275?"

"352 Mookie. And planing to make it to 1,200. E'li willing."

I grinned slightly. "You're kidding Vix. I mean, you hardly eat at all."

"Oh, like you eat properly at all... I'm amazed your blood still flows through your veins."

"I'm a sea-elf... I stuff myself on raw fish..." I replied slightly huffily.

"Sashimi is very good for you... don't particularly care for it myself, but that's not what I'm talking about. I've seen some of the other stuff you eat. As bad as Gilthanas was. Sandwiches with globs of mayonnaise." He shuddered.

"Mayo's good... Adds lost of flavor."

"Adds fat and cholesterol!" He exclaimed, and I grinned. "I sincerely believe that the elven obsession with eating flavorful fat is the main reason so few of them live to the full extent of their years! Another thing... You need to relax a bit... I know, I know, a thief never let's his guard down, but think of your blood pressure!" I rolled my eyes, but found myself beaming, this was the Vix I remembered. "All of my acrobats get regular rub downs, helps with the circulation and prevents injury. When is the last time you had a massage?"

"Ummm... Never?" I replied quite honestly. Even when I had my title I was never much for pampering.

"Never?!" Vixos cried in shock. He immediately started working on my shoulders, mumbling about not having seen a case this bad since Ben. "E'li and Astra, and you're not in constant pain from this?!"

"No... I mean... I have to be tense and ready to move at a moment's notice Vix."

"Tense is not the same as ready to move. Have I ever struck you as one who is not ready to move if need be? If I weren't, I'd never have survived your father. Had amazing aim with crockery."

I winced in sympathy. "Ow... Got hit by a bowl some lady threw at Estrie once. That hurts."

"Aye, nice heavy things, aren't they. And always seem to hit on the edge. Some form of pottery physics I'm not aware of." Vix replied sagely.

That's when the burning agony of horribly overtaxed muscles hit me. "Ow! Ow!"

Vix calmly got up and returned a few moments later with a hot water bottle. "Now I know sea-elves can take this much heat, so don't worry." I winced even more as he set it on my shoulders. He added with that maddening grin of his, "You just don't like blood flow."

I grumbled, but honestly tried to relax. "Vix, this just isn't natural."

Vixos sighed. "You know how long it took me to get Ben to stop being like a tight wound spring? Almost an entire year of constant massage, ice, and heat... Not to mention traction."

"Ben? Why was he like that?"

"Same reason as you. Saved him from the gallows two years before you got here. He got himself caught by a very tricky ward. He was 70 years old and they were going to hang him."

"Really? I..."

"Shh!" Vix suddenly warned, throwing a cloak over me. I backed further into the prop room, curling up on the floor.

I recognized Benvolias' voice. "Vix? You okay? We're all done out here and want to know if we can go now." I suddenly tensed, and bit down on my tongue as my muscles burned like fire again. "Okay... Just thought I heard voices or something... You talking to yourself again?"

"Aye, Ben, of course. I'm just not happy with the embroidery as usual and trying to think of how to improve it. You go ahead and go eat."

I finally simply couldn't take the pain anymore. And the slightest of whimpers escaped me. I caught Vix whimpering to cover quickly. Probably using the embroidery as an excuse.

Ben shrugged, sitting down on the cloak I was covered with. "It's about Prince Miralas again, isn't it. You've been crazy since he left, Vix. But hey, street rat instinct, I have a feeling he'll worm his way back from exile."

Ben tapped my shoulder absently with a finger and stiffened in surprise at the even louder agonized whimper that escaped me.

"Vix, from the musculature and the tone of the whimper I'd say you're going after women on steroids again." Benvolias said good humoredly.

"I'll give you about five seconds to get off me before I hurt you," I snapped. Ben stood up quickly and I pulled off the cloak.

"Allow me to make a formal introduction, since there hasn't actually been one... Miralas, this is Benvolias," Vixos said a tad wearily.

"The second Kanan I have ever sat upon in my life... I am a privileged man." Ben grinned brightly.

I smirked. "And before you think I have a death wish, the dragons say the Queen has gained followers here. I have to find them."

"Ah, sounds like a job for a snooping rat to help sniff out. I'm better than a terrier. Ask Vix who is his best source for inside info." He replied.

"Me." Vix stated matter-of-factly.

I couldn't help but grin. "By the way Ben, the next time you sit on someone, make sure they haven't been victims of Vixos oh-so-tender hands." The last part dripped with sarcasm.

Ben patted me on the back. "I thought he was nuts, too. But it actually does help. Brought me from having catlike reflexes to what I have now. And it stops hurting after about the third time." A dagger materialized in his hand and was gone without him even seeming to move.

I hopped back, tensing up reflexively and groaning. "Stop it!"

"Aye, apparently gave him an incurable ego and an ability to unnerve anyone within thirty paces." Vixos remarked dryly. I smirked.

"Ready for the ice now?" Ben asked. He obviously knew this treatment as well as Vix did.

"I don't think that's a good idea Ben, ice is liable make him more then relaxed, he's a sea-elf, their torpor and all."

"Just make me a spot in the mats to sleep. Where I'll be hidden until it melts and I wake up." I suggested.

And that's what was done. Ben collected the ice while Vix and I formed the gym mats into a fort where I could sleep unmolested under the effect of the ice.

"Alright Mir. Go ahead." Vix said once Benvolias had returned. I nodded and vaulted over the mats, twisting to the ground on the other side.

"Aye. You're right Vix, he does over-rotate to the right." Ben commented.

"That's on purpose. I can't push off my right arm when I'm carrying a saber now can I?" I replied huffily.

"Now how about getting out? Can you do a hand press?" Vix asked.

I tried, and miserably failed. "Ummm... No." Ben simply smiled and walked over to the stacked mats, his wild elf blood giving him quite a bit more muscle than my house elven frame along with another two inches. He neatly pressed up on the mats into a handstand, grinning at Vix upside down.

Vix sighed as I stuck my tongue out at Ben. "Do you remember what I told you about street rat egos decades ago, Miralas?"

"No... What?"

"That they're incurable. Just remember that you never got caught."

I chuckled and curled up in my hole while Vix dropped the ice in.

"Get some rest Mir. I'm off to make Ben do presses until he begs for mercy." Vix shot me his mad and maddening grin as he grabbed Ben's arm. I winked up at Ben and him before they disappeared, Ben's face holding a look of mock horror.

 

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